i think angie's right. hahaha, there's something linking me to japan and the japanese culture. mms.

i want quiet night under the stars.

i'm really considering a weekend trip to norway to see the northern lights (: mms. with ming, stef and cass. oh rachel come in dec ):

i am such an old soul at heart :p hahaha. i bought myself a jade bangle with the money my grandma gave me for my 21st. teehee. its white with tinges of purple and green. love it, though it bloody hurts to wear it -.-

how terribly adorable he is.

mms. i had a really heart-warming then heart-aching dream last night. with a stranger boy. i can't quiet get it off my mind really.

HAHAHA :p it proves i'm VERY anti-social when yipeng actually tags on my blog. mms. hello friend (: i miss you dearly.

celebrated my birthday a month and 3 days in advance today (hinthint). tummy's all full and round :D haha. happy day (:

I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don't let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

how coincidental and wondrous for my heart to have david boreanaz walk out after that song (:

mms. i love cities. the buzz, the people, the fashion and the pulse of energy that's just beneath the surface.

and yet at the same time, i do appreciate the quiet serenity of a sanctuary far up on the mountain top, or a simple stroll by the beach.

i'm missing london, new york and most of all tokyo ):

i don't want to be the girl who dreamt big, but ended up doing nothing, just merely going through the motions and simply connecting the dots that have already been plotted by millions and millions before. i want to go off that path completely, and walk one that is spectacular, fulfilling and wonderful.

i don't want to be the girl that looks back and regrets. i want to do what i love, what i believe in. and be the best i can be. it doesn't matter what the fuck i end up doing really, as long as i love, i believe in the fact that what i end up doing makes a difference, and i'm the best i can possibly be at it.

how uncertain the road ahead seems.

this is bloody random, but i think my housemates will understand. HAHA.

i can't wait to get back to london so i can clean my flat -.- esp scrubbing the bathtub. snorts.

i'm kinda tired of living this temporary life overseas. i know that i'm coming home one day. and because i know that, it feels like i'm neither here nor there. i don't quite belong here anymore, and yet slightly displaced over there too. i can't get a dog nor a car here because i'm not here most of the time. yet at the same time, my mum keeps reminding me i'm graduating in a year and so i should stop buying shit in london.

and while i love london, and love all my friends there, i really don't know if i want to try for the bar, or aim for a masters instead. and all the places i'm aiming for my masters aren't in london. and so it really seems that my time left in london is ticking down.

i can't believe 2 years have just flown by like that. its been the best 2 years ever. i've loved every moment of it. especially my 2nd year. its been a bloody awesome time. too fast too fast. sighs.

hello my dear friends in US. i miss you.

its always the people who get left behind who feel the worst.



because i'm missing japan. because i'm missing the ukulele boy who used to come out and play at 2am, 2 floors below me in high holborn. and because it makes me happy.

my gut feelings, my instincts, my stubbornness and determination have brought me so far. i believe some faith in them is due.

if i keep believing, and keep working at whatever i'm doing. i believe, everything's going to end up alright.

fuck. looks like its applications applications applications when i get back to london ): pah. i hate all these shite. grumbles.

if only my father would let me take a gap year so i could go live in japan for a year. sighs.

mms. my new favourite korean song & boy. hehee.

i was always a front stage person. i never did like doing backstage, even something like makeup and costumes. and yet i have consciously chosen to stand in the shadows for now. hmms.

i finally ordered my honokaa boy cd (: oh i love japanese movies.

matteimasu matteimasu matteimasu.

a blue screen

an empty seat

familiar places that feel so foreign now

after all the goodbyes and hellos, i've thought i've perfected the skill of letting go. till this trip to japan, then did i realise, for the best things, its impossible to let go.